Poetry

Isaiah 59 Feeling Days

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For sometime I’ve had the blessing of being part of a poetry writing group hosted by Q Christian Fellowship. We meet weekly to check in with each other and to write poetry together. I don’t always manage to write something myself, but when I do the group gives me wonderful feedback and support, and I am so often amazed at what my friends in that group compose.

Of course, right now we’re processing together the results of the 2024 general election, and sharing with one another our feelings of anxiety, fear, disbelief, and confusion that so many in this country could elect a convicted felon who bragged of sexually assaulting women. We share an unease and anxiety at being asked to follow the lead of and to respect the office now held by a predator. Last night our poetry expressed where we were in our hearts and minds, and I have to say that my friends did such a better job than me.

Two times last night someone shared poetry which cast me into scripture, recalling to mind important words of faith and aspiration.

The first instance was in a poem written about gentleness, that was in fact a prayer for gentleness. That’s an amazing aspiration and it threw me into the words of St. Paul to the Philippians, “Let your gentleness be known to everyone.” (Philippians 4:5) That verse has always resonated with me, especially living in a time in Western Christianity which more often values the opposite, which values winning fights, winning arguments, and just shouting louder if that’s all we got.

One of the hallmark teachings of Jesus is about breaking cycles of violence, I believe in both speech and action. He said to love one’s enemies, and he taught us an extremely difficult way of giving forgiveness again and again while turning from personal vengefulness. (Matthew 5:38-48 & 18:21-35) I’m not sure about you, but I know that my heart too quickly and too easily reacts to anger with anger and to hatred with hatred. Those statements are not meant to embolden or excuse an abuser, but to keep the abused and injured from joining in the violence. When the time comes for our strength and conviction to be acted upon, gentleness allows us to be just and to know and to share healing.

The second instance of being thrown back on scripture was when another poem’s lament landed me mentally in Isaiah 59. You may be familiar with that chapter, but let me give a quick synopsis. In that chapter we hear first that God can save, “Surely the arm of the Lord is not too short to save nor his ear to dull to hear.” But there’s a problem, and that problem is the mess that we make. Humanity’s messiness can be huge and egregious, staining our hands with blood and destroying justice among us. In fact, the chapter laments that justice cannot be found, it can no longer be heard and is now far from those most needing it. The lament is that we look for justice, but cannot find it, because we killed it. We look for light but only find shadows. By verse 14 we hear the haunting words, “So justice is driven back, and righteousness stands at a distance; truth has stumbled in the streets, honesty cannot enter. Truth is nowhere to be found, and whoever shines evil becomes a prey.” Wow, that really sums up the gut-punch of this past week’s election.

Having had a week to process the general election, and to think about this felon, this abusive predator, again sitting in our highest office, and the damage he will do through those with whom he will surround himself and a Congress which will not oppose him, these truly feel like Isaiah 59 kind of days

I have no hope that this incoming felon will value truth, uphold justice or shine any light by which we might find a good path. But I do have hope. In the next movement of Isaiah 59 God looks upon the earth and sees the mess people have made, and God is not happy. It says that God looked and saw that there was no justice and no one working for justice, and so God goes on the move. God puts on some familiar sounding armor to those of us who read the Christian scriptures (Ephesians 6:10-18)… God puts on the armor of righteousness, salvation, zeal, and the intention to bring justice against those who have oppressed the people, and moves coast to coast to clean things up!

By the beginning of the next chapter, the people are called to “Arise, shine, for your light has come!” (Isaiah 60) The light of God has broken through the shadows and that light will shine on the people and will reflect from the people to every part of the world.  A promise is given that “I will appoint Peace as your overseer and Righteousness as your taskmaster. Violence shall no more be heard in your land, devastation or destruction within your borders; you shall call your walls Salvation and your gates Praise.” (Isaiah 60:17-18) I want to be there in an Isaiah 60 world, but we have to go through these Isaiah 59 days first.

Another blessing for me in these days has been the rhythm of Celtic Daily Prayer, sacred words for the morning, midday and for the evening. Each evening includes an expression of faith, words spoken from Isaiah 59 days in trust of the coming Isaiah 60 morning…

Lord, You have always given
bread for the coming day;
and though I am poor,
today I believe.

Lord, You have always given
strength for the coming day;
and though I am weak,
today I believe.

Lord, You have always given
peace for the coming day;
and though of anxious heart,
today I believe.

Lord, You have always kept
me safe in trials;
and now, tried as I am,
today I believe.

Lord, You have always marked
the road for the coming day;
and though it may be hidden,
today I believe.

Lord, You have always lightened
this darkness of mine;
and though the night is here,
today I believe.

Lord, You have always spoken
when time was ripe;
and though you be silent now,
today I believe.

Walking through a difficult and hurtful chapter can make the next chapter seem less real and too far off. It especially pains us that this terrible chapter has just begun and has years yet to be written. But it will end, and a new chapter will begin.

I will watch out for you, and I know you’ll be watching out for me. Though I wait for so much which I can only hope to see tomorrow, today I believe. 

AMDG, Todd

surprised by gratitude

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surprised by gratitudeit was like the birds waited in ambush
to wake me some from my walking slumber
breaking in on my morning
to startle me with beauty, and
surprise me with gratitude
for their song
for the creation happening all around me
and i had to give thanks
amen

 

AMDG, Todd

Paul Simon Day Nov. 21st

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November 21st, Paul Simon Day!

BEHOLD! I hereby declare November 21st to be Paul Simon Day! He has sung to me for like my whole freakin’ life, a blessing and a bardly companion through the years. I’m feeling super grateful this morning for all he has sung into my life over the years, from the melancholy strains of Sound of Silence to the dancing joy of Graceland. One of my earliest cassette tapes was Simon and Garfunkel’s Greatest Hits, and it’s in my iTunes library today with others.

My all-time hands-down no-contest favorite song from Paul Simon? It harkens back to the good ole’ Simon and Garfunkel days… The Dangling Conversation. Simply some of the best lyricism on the planet.

I don’t know for sure that Paul needs a day, but now he has one. I’m holding out hope that we’ll still meet up one morning (with all the other hipster wildebeests) at Starbucks and lead everyone munching on their Cranberry Bliss Bars in a rousing chorus of Bridge Over Troubled Waters, because you know, I’ll just happen to have a ukulele with me. We all need a dream right?

Happy Paul Simon Day, beloved!
Happy Paul Simon Day, Paul!

AMDG, Todd

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a brief hymn of peace

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a brief hymn of peaceI offer you a brief hymn of peace from my morning prayers… be blessed, today!

“some days i simply stop
and sing the old hymns
songs well worn
bells long rung
history
faith
connection
stories
fate
reflection
and i sit
with God
sinners
saints
and we are not
undone.”

 

AMDG, Todd

The End of NaPoWriMo, #NaPoWriMo April 30, 2014

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Well, I probably only wrote a week’s worth of poems for the “month,” but I still value the time and am so appreciative of all the amazing poems I have seen from friends and strangers in April! You all rock, and  love ya! I tend to write only when I feel the Spirit move, as I paint, and so for me the month was a stretching and a challenge. As usual, I started with a shout and ended with a sigh. Still, it was good.

new human logo button blackbending, tending
rending, trending

pending, sending
lending, spending

no more pretending
no condescending

a month of contending
is now at its ending

’til next we’re intending
our words for appending

to share the ascending
our souls for befriending

rhymes over-extending
but hearts for commending

on our love
i’ll be depending

AMDG, Todd

 

I love Incense, thoughts for #NaPoWriMo April 29, 2014

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why i burn.pngI love burning incense
The movement, heat and smell
Sticks and wicks and smoke
The ashes lined where they fell

It calms me and soothes me
Aromatic curls in flight
I love the way it rises
Like prayers through the day and night

Up, up and reaching higher
The colors of stem and flame
Are little joys upon the path
To the dust from which we came

 

AMDG, Todd

trying to find some words #NaPoWriMo 04/15/2014

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hate

hate be gone
hate be done
for we renounce you
we deny you

and the death
in which you revel
will never be
victory

hate
you have no hope
you birth
no future

we will
withstand you
we will
outlast you

when you are
a sick memory
a stain
upon our past

we will sing
a new song
beyond
your prison

because walls
of hate
will not stand
for long

and the peace
for which
we pray
will come

sung
upon the strands
of the love
we share

neighbor
friend
human
beloved

dark hatred
will be scattered
weak and undone
before love’s flame

 

I always begin things like #NaPoWriMo with high expectations and lots of energy – but it’s never long before I run out of words. So I start to strain to make some poems and my frustration mounts. Usually I end up a bit indignant that I would so arbitrarily be asked to make a poem a day. But that’s just silliness. I volunteered to be part of the exercise, I just didn’t think I’d have so many days of dryness when no words come to me when called.

And then the news comes on, and I see things like the hateful shootings, the murder of our Jewish neighbors in Kansas, a hateful crime I suppose was meant to stain their holiday. I want to scream. I want to deny that this still happens. I want to deny that anyone can be so broken as to choose such hate and it’s bile, it’s loss, it’s theft, it’s shame.

Words came back to me, today, after a week or so of not answering my call. Today, I protest the hate. I deny the killing stupidity and waste. I renounce any and all of the ignorant paranoia and fear. I call out to the humanity that is buried under the weight of such darkness.

I pray for the families affected by that hateful touch. I mourn with them, though not as them. They have been broken apart and touched so forcefully by the killing hatred. May their peace be restored and love wrap them in the divine embrace.

AMDG, Todd

 

 

a prayer for #NaPoWriMo 04/08/2014

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I’d like to share a prayer that I composed for the opening of today’s session of the Montgomery County Council, delivered in Rockville, MD. It was an honor to open the session and wish everyone an amazing day.

 

imagefor the energy
to face our tasks
for the wisdom and knowledge
to make decisions
for the creativity and imagination
to overcome obstacles
for civility
in our discourse
for peace
in our communities
for joy
in the service we will
provide to our neighbors
for all these things
and every needful blessing
to accomplish the work of our day,
we pray. amen.

04/08/2014

 

I’m kinda geekin’ out here… I composed this blog in Chrome on my iPad. I haven’t had a ton of luck with such an exercise in the past, but it was fairly seamless, today. Woot!

AMDG, Todd

two more poems for #NaPoWriMo 04/06/2014

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I did write a poem yesterday on April 5, but I never had time to sit and get it on the computer. So here’s that haiku and a short free verse for today…

 

green budscold winds
move limbs
bare but for the green buds

04/05/2014

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

first cheery blossoms 2014

 

the first blossoms i have seen
grace our ride today
as my son
and i
enjoy the sunlight
and local path

04/06/2014

“demons” a poem for #NaPoWriMo 04/04/2014

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reflecting on the latest shooting at Ft. Hood, for #NaPoWriMo…

 

what are these terrifying demonsScreen Shot 2014-04-03 at 2.20.21 PM.png
that live within us?
this
damnable suffering
this
pain
that spills over into our hands
and runs angrily
deadly
down the barrel of a gun

ripping bodies
rending souls
seething malice
heartfelt anguish

how many names do these demons have?
victims
also have names

one does not
domesticate these demons
one does not
harness a demon
for gain
without paying a price

lead us not into temptation
nor the arms of a demon
but
deliver us from the price

04/04/2014

 

I have my own demons, as we each carry them through our lives, leaving some behind and finding new ones all along the way. The latest shooting at Ft. Hood put a shadow over me, yesterday. It stirred my demons. We like the heroes in our comic books and stories to destroy whole armies, to fight and kill, to slaughter the bad guys and gals by the dozen, and to face down all the enemies they find… but in real life we are much more fragile than the characters of our fantasies. I pray that we take ever more seriously the price we pay for sending our women and men into conflict after conflict, and that we take seriously the price they pay. The men and women who serve us are too great a treasure to take for granted or to leave to the demons.

Yesterday, just to show my age, it was John Denver who helped sing my demons back into the shadows.

AMDG, Todd